Ok so I usually leave this sort of thing out of the blog but today was kind of weird. Ok really weird. I spent more time than anyone other than my lady friend appreciated out of my department at work trying to convince a 40 year old married woman that it wasn't such a bad idea for us to form an intimate relationship. Of course its a horrible idea, and she knows it, but she's sitting there thinking it's a horrible idea because I'll be hurt when we can't last seriously as a couple for ever, and I'm thinking it's a horible idea because she wants to take it to seriously if we do it at all, but we're both still walking around with each other for more than an hour discussing it, and not letting eachother go do anything else even for a minute. So yeah, both of us are fucking stupid, and we both have serious hots for each other.

On of the more unique parts of this is I've never played up my romantic interest before when my main goal was sexual, except after a while with Allie, after she was already being a bitch. Not that I'm totally lying now, but the truth is, I want our companionship, and I want the holding and the sex, but I don't want to be her "Boyfriend", and meet her children, and play step-dad. Christallfuckno. I want to be her backdoor man, and frankly I don't want to be held too accountable for myself either. This is totally not fucking going to work.